I've been so OFF this past couple of months, and it is SO frustrating! I'm running high 190s lately, and haven't really had a good workout in a long time. Part of me really wants to get a grip and get back to business, but part of me says, "Oh man, this Ben and Jerry's tastes GOOD!!!" I know I can have both, though. I know I can be active, watch my weight and calorie intake, and still enjoy an OCCASIONAL treat, but part of me feels like I am bent on self-sabotage.
It really feels like I'm doing this in an "all or nothing" type of way. Either I'm "on" and doing everything "right" or it all goes out the window, and I'm eating everything in sight and my only exercise is walking to the refrigerator for another helping of whatever sounds good. Sooo frustrating!
My gut has filled back out and most of my jeans feel nice and snug, so I'm wearing stretchy clothes again. Gross, huh? I got rid of all my size 16+ clothes, and only kept one pair of size 14 jeans. They fit nice, but they were getting really baggy...too baggy. My 10s and 12s that fit a couple months ago are mostly too small again. And they are sooo cute! I want to be able to wear them again!
This week I am going to refocus on my goals. I KNOW that if I focus in again I will be able to drop 10 pounds really easily. It seems like if I'm "relosing" weight, it comes off much easier than the first time. Hopefully this will prove true with this extra 15-18ish pounds I'm carrying around right now. I just need to go back to eating in moderation. I feel best when I drink protein shakes for breakfast and lunch with fruit or string cheese as snacks, then eat a sensible portion of whatever I make for the family for dinner. On Fridays, I splurge and can have whatever I have been craving during the week. I can do this! I just need to refocus and DO IT!
Here goes!
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